Wednesday, May 25, 2005


i have decided to move my family blog to a new blog service. to see my new page go to

i'll still keep this blog running until i move all my old entries though.


Monday, May 23, 2005

another good joke

silas told me a good joke today:

s: "how many chins does a fortune teller have?"

me: "i don't know, how many?"

s: "four chins, fortunes...get it??"

he told me this outside of the church we had just been in to celebrate my niece's 8th grade graduation. this is the first time in over 10 years i've been to a church service, and that time was for a wedding (at the same church even!). it was strange, i still know the whole ceremony...has anyone ever been raised catholic and not still known the mass by heart?? weird.

quote for my state of mind today and from a song that won't get out of my head:
"i thought that i'd outgrow this kind of thing. tell me, aren't we supposed to mature or something? i haven't found that yet, is this as grown up as we ever get? maybe this is as good as it gets. years may go by, but i think the heart remains a child. the mind may grow wise, but the heart just sulks and it whines and remains a child."
from - "the heart remains a child"
by - everything but the girl (i adore them, <---click here to check them out!)

Wednesday, May 18, 2005

cave lady

it has been forever since i had an entry here...i must not have anything to say. or do i?? i seem to be withdrawing from things lately. i don't feel like being around friends, except the one friend that i can't be very far away. i meet new people and immediately i feel the pressure of friendship...the one thing i always longed for i now pull away from like it is a disease. i just want to be at home, my sanctuary away from the world. well anyway...Share

Tuesday, January 04, 2005


home for a little vacation. has it only been 3 months since we moved...seems like so much longer. i read a book the other day "the five people you meet in heaven" by mitch albom. it was useful, timely even. and here is a quote, i am all about quotes today:
"learn this from me. holding anger is a poison. it eats you from inside. we think that hating is a weapon that attacks the person who harmed us. but hatred is a curved blade. and the harm we do, we do to ourselves."

and from a song:
"is there something that you haven't said?
i believe...i believe that love...i believe that love is the only thing...the only thing that can all." -j. siberry

and this is where i am right now in my particular journey to self. i'm looking at healing, instead of reopening, old wounds. i'm looking at forgiving, instead of forgetting. i'm looking at holding onto, instead of letting go of, people. i'm at that place we all come to eventually, even if just to visit for awhile. i just wanted to put this down somewhere, anywhere, for whatever reason. because today was harder than it should've been, and i need to know why.